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Interests: Finding new roads to travel. Making the mundane exciting. Working to make the world a better place for others. Wearing my heart on my sleeve. Laughing loud and proud. Observing this funny thing called life.
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Tuesday, January 20, 2009

What a wonderful day!! I just wanted to document the moment. I watched on Sproul where the university had erected a jumbotron, from right in front of the GBC....from the area where APhiO and all the other school organizations set-up their tables. It was bright, and I had to wear my sunglasses. But I could see, somehow, between the crowds and amidst those famous Berkeley trees, and listen to his words.  

My fellow citizens:

I stand here today humbled by the task before us, grateful for the trust you have bestowed, mindful of the sacrifices borne by our ancestors. I thank President Bush for his service to our nation, as well as the generosity and cooperation he has shown throughout this transition.

Forty-four Americans have now taken the presidential oath. The words have been spoken during rising tides of prosperity and the still waters of peace. Yet, every so often, the oath is taken amidst gathering clouds and raging storms. At these moments, America has carried on not simply because of the skill or vision of those in high office, but because We the People have remained faithful to the ideals of our forebearers, and true to our founding documents.

So it has been. So it must be with this generation of Americans.

That we are in the midst of crisis is now well understood. Our nation is at war, against a far-reaching network of violence and hatred. Our economy is badly weakened, a consequence of greed and irresponsibility on the part of some, but also our collective failure to make hard choices and prepare the nation for a new age. Homes have been lost; jobs shed; businesses shuttered. Our health care is too costly; our schools fail too many; and each day brings further evidence that the ways we use energy strengthen our adversaries and threaten our planet.

These are the indicators of crisis, subject to data and statistics. Less measurable but no less profound is a sapping of confidence across our land -- a nagging fear that America's decline is inevitable, and that the next generation must lower its sights.

Today I say to you that the challenges we face are real. They are serious and they are many. They will not be met easily or in a short span of time. But know this, America: They will be met.

On this day, we gather because we have chosen hope over fear, unity of purpose over conflict and discord.

On this day, we come to proclaim an end to the petty grievances and false promises, the recriminations and worn-out dogmas, that for far too long have strangled our politics.

We remain a young nation, but in the words of Scripture, the time has come to set aside childish things. The time has come to reaffirm our enduring spirit; to choose our better history; to carry forward that precious gift, that noble idea, passed on from generation to generation: the God-given promise that all are equal, all are free, and all deserve a chance to pursue their full measure of happiness.

In reaffirming the greatness of our nation, we understand that greatness is never a given. It must be earned. Our journey has never been one of shortcuts or settling for less. It has not been the path for the fainthearted -- for those who prefer leisure over work, or seek only the pleasures of riches and fame. Rather, it has been the risk-takers, the doers, the makers of things -- some celebrated, but more often men and women obscure in their labor -- who have carried us up the long, rugged path toward prosperity and freedom.

For us, they packed up their few worldly possessions and traveled across oceans in search of a new life.

For us, they toiled in sweatshops and settled the West; endured the lash of the whip and plowed the hard earth.

For us, they fought and died, in places like Concord and Gettysburg; Normandy and Khe Sahn.

Time and again, these men and women struggled and sacrificed and worked till their hands were raw so that we might live a better life. They saw America as bigger than the sum of our individual ambitions; greater than all the differences of birth or wealth or faction.

This is the journey we continue today. We remain the most prosperous, powerful nation on Earth. Our workers are no less productive than when this crisis began. Our minds are no less inventive, our goods and services no less needed than they were last week or last month or last year. Our capacity remains undiminished. But our time of standing pat, of protecting narrow interests and putting off unpleasant decisions -- that time has surely passed. Starting today, we must pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off, and begin again the work of remaking America.

For everywhere we look, there is work to be done. The state of the economy calls for action, bold and swift, and we will act -- not only to create new jobs, but to lay a new foundation for growth. We will build the roads and bridges, the electric grids and digital lines that feed our commerce and bind us together. We will restore science to its rightful place, and wield technology's wonders to raise health care's quality and lower its cost. We will harness the sun and the winds and the soil to fuel our cars and run our factories. And we will transform our schools and colleges and universities to meet the demands of a new age. All this we can do. And all this we will do.

Now, there are some who question the scale of our ambitions -- who suggest that our system cannot tolerate too many big plans. Their memories are short. For they have forgotten what this country has already done; what free men and women can achieve when imagination is joined to common purpose, and necessity to courage.

What the cynics fail to understand is that the ground has shifted beneath them -- that the stale political arguments that have consumed us for so long no longer apply. The question we ask today is not whether our government is too big or too small, but whether it works -- whether it helps families find jobs at a decent wage, care they can afford, a retirement that is dignified. Where the answer is yes, we intend to move forward. Where the answer is no, programs will end. And those of us who manage the public's dollars will be held to account -- to spend wisely, reform bad habits, and do our business in the light of day -- because only then can we restore the vital trust between a people and their government.

Nor is the question before us whether the market is a force for good or ill. Its power to generate wealth and expand freedom is unmatched, but this crisis has reminded us that without a watchful eye, the market can spin out of control -- and that a nation cannot prosper long when it favors only the prosperous. The success of our economy has always depended not just on the size of our gross domestic product, but on the reach of our prosperity; on our ability to extend opportunity to every willing heart -- not out of charity, but because it is the surest route to our common good.

As for our common defense, we reject as false the choice between our safety and our ideals. Our Founding Fathers, faced with perils we can scarcely imagine, drafted a charter to assure the rule of law and the rights of man, a charter expanded by the blood of generations. Those ideals still light the world, and we will not give them up for expedience's sake. And so to all other peoples and governments who are watching today, from the grandest capitals to the small village where my father was born: Know that America is a friend of each nation and every man, woman and child who seeks a future of peace and dignity, and that we are ready to lead once more.

Recall that earlier generations faced down fascism and communism not just with missiles and tanks, but with sturdy alliances and enduring convictions. They understood that our power alone cannot protect us, nor does it entitle us to do as we please. Instead, they knew that our power grows through its prudent use; our security emanates from the justness of our cause, the force of our example, the tempering qualities of humility and restraint.

We are the keepers of this legacy. Guided by these principles once more, we can meet those new threats that demand even greater effort -- even greater cooperation and understanding between nations. We will begin to responsibly leave Iraq to its people, and forge a hard-earned peace in Afghanistan. With old friends and former foes, we will work tirelessly to lessen the nuclear threat, and roll back the specter of a warming planet. We will not apologize for our way of life, nor will we waver in its defense, and for those who seek to advance their aims by inducing terror and slaughtering innocents, we say to you now that our spirit is stronger and cannot be broken; you cannot outlast us, and we will defeat you.

For we know that our patchwork heritage is a strength, not a weakness. We are a nation of Christians and Muslims, Jews and Hindus -- and nonbelievers. We are shaped by every language and culture, drawn from every end of this Earth; and because we have tasted the bitter swill of civil war and segregation, and emerged from that dark chapter stronger and more united, we cannot help but believe that the old hatreds shall someday pass; that the lines of tribe shall soon dissolve; that as the world grows smaller, our common humanity shall reveal itself; and that America must play its role in ushering in a new era of peace.

To the Muslim world, we seek a new way forward, based on mutual interest and mutual respect. To those leaders around the globe who seek to sow conflict, or blame their society's ills on the West: Know that your people will judge you on what you can build, not what you destroy. To those who cling to power through corruption and deceit and the silencing of dissent, know that you are on the wrong side of history; but that we will extend a hand if you are willing to unclench your fist.

To the people of poor nations, we pledge to work alongside you to make your farms flourish and let clean waters flow; to nourish starved bodies and feed hungry minds. And to those nations like ours that enjoy relative plenty, we say we can no longer afford indifference to suffering outside our borders; nor can we consume the world's resources without regard to effect. For the world has changed, and we must change with it.

As we consider the road that unfolds before us, we remember with humble gratitude those brave Americans who, at this very hour, patrol far-off deserts and distant mountains. They have something to tell us today, just as the fallen heroes who lie in Arlington whisper through the ages. We honor them not only because they are guardians of our liberty, but because they embody the spirit of service; a willingness to find meaning in something greater than themselves. And yet, at this moment -- a moment that will define a generation -- it is precisely this spirit that must inhabit us all.

For as much as government can do and must do, it is ultimately the faith and determination of the American people upon which this nation relies. It is the kindness to take in a stranger when the levees break, the selflessness of workers who would rather cut their hours than see a friend lose their job which sees us through our darkest hours. It is the firefighter's courage to storm a stairway filled with smoke, but also a parent's willingness to nurture a child, that finally decides our fate.

Our challenges may be new. The instruments with which we meet them may be new. But those values upon which our success depends -- hard work and honesty, courage and fair play, tolerance and curiosity, loyalty and patriotism -- these things are old. These things are true. They have been the quiet force of progress throughout our history. What is demanded then is a return to these truths. What is required of us now is a new era of responsibility -- a recognition, on the part of every American, that we have duties to ourselves, our nation and the world; duties that we do not grudgingly accept but rather seize gladly, firm in the knowledge that there is nothing so satisfying to the spirit, so defining of our character, than giving our all to a difficult task.

This is the price and the promise of citizenship.

This is the source of our confidence -- the knowledge that God calls on us to shape an uncertain destiny.

This is the meaning of our liberty and our creed -- why men and women and children of every race and every faith can join in celebration across this magnificent Mall, and why a man whose father less than 60 years ago might not have been served at a local restaurant can now stand before you to take a most sacred oath.

So let us mark this day with remembrance, of who we are and how far we have traveled. In the year of America's birth, in the coldest of months, a small band of patriots huddled by dying campfires on the shores of an icy river. The capital was abandoned. The enemy was advancing. The snow was stained with blood. At a moment when the outcome of our revolution was most in doubt, the father of our nation ordered these words be read to the people:

"Let it be told to the future world ... that in the depth of winter, when nothing but hope and virtue could survive... that the city and the country, alarmed at one common danger, came forth to meet [it]."

America. In the face of our common dangers, in this winter of our hardship, let us remember these timeless words. With hope and virtue, let us brave once more the icy currents, and endure what storms may come. Let it be said by our children's children that when we were tested, we refused to let this journey end, that we did not turn back, nor did we falter; and with eyes fixed on the horizon and God's grace upon us, we carried forth that great gift of freedom and delivered it safely to future generations.


Tuesday, January 22, 2008

In my constant quest for statements that can help me find my way or can somehow vocalize the long-winded bits of smart thinking I think I have already somehow gained in my journeys...


Words of Wisdom from Maya Angelou
(I've bolded my favs), when interviewed by Oprah on her 70th birthday about what she has learned from life:

'I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow.'

'I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights.' And may I add, when stuck in traffic. In our best of moments, we all act the same; it's in our hardships I feel we see our defining qualities. 

'I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life.'

'I've learned that making a 'living' is not the same thing as 'making a life.' I think it took me a long time to get to this one, and I'm still working on it to be happy and ok with choices I feel I really want for myself in this point in my life that go against my *old* definititions of success.

'I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance.'

'I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw some things back.'

'I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision.'

'I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one.' Amen, sista! And yet, something that is still pretty hard to do. 

'I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.'

'I've learned that I still have a lot to learn.'

'I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.' This one's got to go down on the wall because I have to work on it.

 


Thursday, January 10, 2008

Dear Friends,

I realized over the winter break that it has been far too long that we have kept our good news primarily to ourselves and others we have only seen in person. I had hoped to personally contact many of you to share this, but once it happened, life became even busier. I believe the news has trickled in some circles, but I think alot of you who have been with us since the beginning have moved "out of gossip range"  , so I thought we should just make the annoucement. So, if you did not know already or haven't figured it out....

We are extremely happy to annouce that we are engaged to be married. Elvin proposed on our 6-year anniversary in September of 2007, and, wierdly enough, I was still very surprised although I was immediate in my "YES!!" response. There could have been no other answer - he has always had my heart. I will save the details for other conversations, but the proposal was very sweet, occurring exactly at sunset at a bench on the very tip of the Berkeley marina -- so near the sites of where we first fell in love (Adventure Playground) and our first date (Skate's). He did bend down on one knee, and while I will not name names, some tears were shed in the acknowledgement of how much we mean to the other.

Unfortunately, I am still located on the East Coast and am planning to stay with my job until the summer -- but wedding planning has been well under way despite the distance and we have been extremely fortunate in somehow being able to get each and every venue and vendor we have wanted so far (knock on wood). The wedding will be on September 6th of 2008 in San Francisco, CA. The ceremony will take place at St. Patrick's Catholic Church in downtown San Francisco, right in front of Yerba Beuna Gardens, and the reception will be held at the Presidio Golden Gate Club with its beautiful views of the Golden Gate Bridge and the bay. If you ask any more questions about any other items, I could easily talk your ear off, so ask at your own risk.

Ultimately, while I look forward to the wedding and will be working on the preparations over the year, I am most excited about different things. Being able to fall asleep by him and feeling that extreme sense of security, comfort, and contentment of being exactly where I should be when I close my eyes at night. Being able to share my joys as well as my woes from the day in a more timely manner rather than having to consider the 3-hour difference. Laying on his chest while we watch Grey's Anatomy (if it's my first choice) or the Office (if it's his). Being right there on his bad days when I can tell silent understanding is what is needed but where silent understanding over the phone is just not as helpful as silent understanding with a back rub. Having him there when it's my bad day. And, well, just aligning my life with the person who is my perfect compliment -- making not only the best days even better and the worse days so much more bearable, but enhancing my life in a way that I truly believe has allowed me to more be the person I want to be. Being with this person full-time; I am just so excited about it all.

So, that is the news and we just wanted to let you all know as so many of you have been involved in this courtship, whether in those first days as friends trying to scheme events where we could hang out until we had the guts enough to express our feelings or just throughout the relationship as support systems when we faced our battles or support systems in just enjoying this life we all share to the best of our ability....

Take care and we wish you a wonderful new year, Michelle & Elvin

 (P.S. Talk about perfect compliments....look how Elvin spreads the news on his xanga as compared to mine. It's a good balance .)

 


Friday, March 23, 2007

in this reality in this lifetime and in this country,

so many things that do not truly matter at all take the guise of mattering profoundly.
things that, only in retrospect, are not neccessary to your happiness, nor neccessary to your survival,
often become so significantly defining that you feel as if,
in the absence of achieving these things, 
your entire world would come crashing down and your life would have been for naught.
and so your only choice is to become the runner in the race trying to cross a finish line that,
in the end, just moves further away with each step.
until you just become this tired person, tired from the chase but still chasing,
a person who moves with shoulders stooped from the weight of the worry and what-ifs of not making the mark.

i think, if i didn't live in this reality in this lifetime and in this country,
my choices would be easy, i know that without the things that are made to matter to living in this place obscuring the things that matter in my heart, that have always mattered in my heart,
i would be making choices that would actually conclude with me being satisfied and content.

and then i realized, i know exactly what things matter in my heart.
and my choices should be no different just because i live in this in this reality in this lifetime and in this country.

 


Wednesday, February 28, 2007

slowly but surely

 



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